Well, I haven't posted before but I figured this was a better time than ever. My sailor graduated from A school today and I am so beyond proud of him. I couldn't be there because of work and since he has a flight home tonight, he told me not to worry about it.
I guess I should really say HAD a flight home. He graduated around 2, got back to his room at 3 and got an e-mail from the airline saying that his flight was canceled and he's rescheduled for the flight tomorrow morning. I was literally about 30 minutes from leaving my house to go to his, so his parents and I could go pick him up from the airport. But now that has to be delayed.
I'll admit I cried. A lot. Which now that I think about it is stupid, but what can I say. I miss the boy and am disappointed that I have to wait AGAIN to see him. Part of my tears is from the sheer utter disappointment, sadness and anger at the airlines that I heard in his voice. It broke my heart. And me being the person I am, came up with a million different ideas on how he could still get home tonight. But, my guy being who he is, was really too angry and annoyed to listen. And stressing, a lot! So none of my ideas really panned out.
I feel stupid for being so upset that our reunion is being delayed. When I think about all the girls that don't get to talk to their sailor every day like I do at the moment, who don't get to have that communication, that don't get to fly easily to see him (well, relatively easily I should say). When I think about all those girls that have their loved ones deployed and their homecomings get pushed back. To me, those are the girls that really have the right to be upset. Not me.
But I am and I'm trying to do my best to get over it. Thankfully my mom is a good voice of reason as is one of my best friends. She said to me that at least now we get to spend his first full day home together and he's still getting in early. Plus, I have him home for 10 days, so is this really that bad? There's a reason I love that girl so much, she's always been my voice of reason.
So he has a flight tomorrow morning (that praying and keeping all 10 fingers and toes crossed) that doesn't get canceled either. Just gotta wait and see. He's not gonna be in a great mood tonight and neither will I. So just gonna stay focused on my excitement to finally see him again and that first hug and kiss. It's what's gonna get me through the disappointment and sadness I'm feeling at the moment.
1 comment:
Hang in there chica! I know it's easy to be disappointed with all the changes of the military. They sure keep us waiting all the time. Don't worry about being sad when you can't see your man till the next day because you think it's a lot more than other military SO's get. We each have our own battles and right now this one is yours. It's no smaller than any of ours, who are going through a deployment or whatever else. It's great to meet another Navy gal. I look forward to more posts =]
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