relaxing

So I haven't done much of anything today except relax. I've just been chilling out in my room, working on my blog (I've become a little obsessed with working on my layout lol) and hanging out with my mom and puppy. It's actually pretty nice and I'm liking not doing much of anything today. Normally I get to talk to my sailor on and off throughout the day on the weekends, but he's on watch this weekend so I won't get to talk to him again until tonight. As much as I wish he was home to be able to talk to because I'm so used to just picking up my phone, I'm keeping busy and I know this is just a SMALL "preview" of what our life is going to become once he's gone on an underway or deployed. If you had known me pre-Navy, I probably would not have handled not talking very well. Not only has the Navy helped him grow into the amazing man he is (he always was but he only gets better :) but it's helped me grow too. Some of the pro's/con's about Navy life.

So I'm laying on my bed, blogging, and watching my favorite show, Friends (I have all 10 seasons and can recite every episode. Crazy, I know, but I just love it!) This show always makes me laugh, no matter what. I couldn't pick a favorite character, I just love them all too much! I'm watching "The One with Ross and Monica's Cousin" and Joey wants to be in a movie, and needs to be authentically Italian "below the belt". No matter how many times I see this show, I always laugh even though I know what's coming. I'll leave this side note with one of my favorite lines from this episode. "This is not like learning to ride a horse! This is like learning to grow a turtleneck!" O I love it! :)

Anyway, this post is all over the place I'm realizing so I'll get to a point. My mom came into my room before while I was sitting at my desk on my computer and sat on my bed with our puppy. I don't know how we got onto the subject, I think it had to do with painting my room. I had wanted to re-paint my walls awhile ago and had tested 3 colors on a spot on my wall. She laughed because those 3 spots are still there. I said that I'm not going to worry about re-painting to a color I want because I will only be here about another year and a half, max 2 years, depending on when my sailor exactly finishes school. I said that I would re-paint it a color she wants now or closer to packing up and leaving. She then asked me if I was planning on taking my bedroom furniture, which I said I would most likely take my dresser and entertainment cabinet, seeing as between me and my sailor, we obviously don't have a whole lot. I have a desk but it's huge so I'll end up leaving that and buying something cheap but decent at Target or something like that. We've talked a lot about me leaving and everything. She wants to make sure that don't have to clean, organize and pack all last minute (especially since I'll be planning our wedding at the same time). She did however joke to our puppy that she was gonna make it his room or her closet. She can be funny when she wants to be! :)

I am extremely close with my mom. She is my best friend. I know she is having a semi-hard time with thinking about me leaving. I am her only child and we've always done anything and everything together. It hurts me just as much to leave her. But she is being beyond supportive and I couldn't ask for more. When she was on my bed with the puppy, she said something that tugged at my heart. She was telling him that they were going to have to kidnap me because they don't want me to leave. I know she won't stop me, but it hurts knowing that I'm hurting her in a way by leaving.

I'm lucky though because she always tells me that no matter what, she wants me to be happy. That's also what she said to my sailor when he was home on leave from A school and talked to her about marrying me. I had already talked to her about it all obviously, but he wanted to talk to her himself because he knows how important she is to me. She always tells me that my happiness is her main concern. And I know that she loves my sailor too and already considers him to be a part of our family. So although I know that it's going to be difficult when the time comes to leave, I also know that she supports me and loves me, and I am so lucky to have that. My mom is the best mother I could have ever hoped or dreamed of (if I had had the chance to choose obviously! lol)

I have some of the best supporters in my life and I don't know what I would do without them :)